I have been having such a Marvin couple of months. I just can’t shake it.
I saw my primary care doctor today and I told him just how down and out I’ve been because I thought maybe it might be time to change my medications. It’s been a downward spiral for a few months now. Since late this summer probably.
He didn’t want to change my antidepressant just yet but did tell me I need to take my xanax as prescribed and suggested I look in to talking to someone or expressing my feelings more. I just don’t… I don’t know that it’ll help. When I do talk about what’s got me down I just feel emptier. I’m going to try though.
My life lately has been just too much. My day job is suffocating me. I’m completely run down. When I do have “time off”, meaning I only work either my day job or my studio job, I’m so exhausted I can barely function. It takes me an hour at least every morning to talk myself in to getting out of bed.
I just have nothing left in the tank and even though I’ve got a few really great friends who have been there for me I just don’t know what to do or where to go. I’m trying to think positively and surround myself with good people but sadly it just doesn’t seem to be enough.
One foot in front of the other. One day at a time.